The most painful thing is to see yourself fall … Very deep inside you, you see leaves fall very slowly from the top of tree branches and the sun is going to rest in its final destination … It's the sunset again … You just don't believe that what you struggled to do is fading away … Just try to persuade yourself it not happens and it's just illusion... … But very deep inside you, you believe your sense and know … It Happens Really!!! … As happens every time and as it will happen again and again … It will extend over and you won't have your rest … You won't get your peace as you like … Or as you struggled to find … It's YOU that you have a strange world with very strange rules … Mayhaps they can't be obeyed that easily but they can't be changed … But at last you will be tired seeing that sunset again and say to yourself: is it the last sunset??? … Or you need to feel another upcoming warmth mayhaps it will come … Or mayhaps not … Anyway you know it's the night again although you don't believe it … You know that you need to crawl to your cave to protect yourself from the upcoming night storms … From your seat in your cave you will see the cold storm blows again as you used to see before … But every time you will feel its cold as you felt it the first time … You will never get costumed on it … You just now know you came back to be alone again … And you must bear this stormy night whatever it extends …

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From Alaa Noureldeen's Diaries (Writing date is not recognized)